People Fasting

Since April 7th, I have been living like a Covid-19 quarantine. Except, I can go to the woods, ride a bike, talk to bugs, trees, the sky and bed-time fireflies on my ceiling. And except I am doing this at a camp like environment.

There are only 3 others living nearby, my sister (thavry) and her husban (tom) and Hangsia who is working on a decentralized cloud computing idea called Kumandra. They live on the other side of the camp, around 1km away from each others.

We meet around meal time or when I feel go to check Mango Farm area. I would say I meet them around 1 hr to 2 hrs per day on average. Beside that, on April 15th, there friends visited with a small family of 5th. We chill and build swimming pool at stream around 4 km away from the camp. Pretty fun, but that was it.

Occasionally, I talk to some friends on the phone. On average around 3 hrs per day maximum, since then.

So there I am people fasting period of 2022. Strange time but really interesting time, regardless.

Food Fasting

I have been accidentally doing 16 hours fasting from Monday to Saturday and 24 hrs fasting on Sunday. It first started from being lazy to go to eat, but then I see that I have an opportunity to test out what body can do. I was planning on only Sunday 24 hrs fasting, but not the additional.

Surprisingly enough, I wake up fresh, feeling so light and agile. I have not tested running up hill yet, but I don’t think I have any shortage of breath doing so.

I thought, I would be weak. As for the first few days I was feeling a bit weak and hungry, but that wasn't from not eating. It was from the heat, when I look back at the cause.

I think, human body don't need as much food as we think. I used to feel so anxious when I had no breakfast by 9 am, no lunch by 12 pm and no dinner by 7 pm. I was not like that before, only after mid 2016 - mid 2021. My life in that period seem to be dictated by food.

Not a conclusion on anything at this point. My body may have been going through something, who knows. Though, I think the fresh air, sunlight, and trees and mountains does affect our physical and emotional stability.

Not to blame on city life, but in the city we put so much effort on what and where to eat (if we eat outside a lot), what to dress, people, time, place to meet. These things consume not only money, but also time and energy. Which if we don't spend on that, we can do so many other things. Some could be much more memorable and meaningful, though some of those things are not so value in our society these days.

I am not saying that we should not meet people. All I am trying to say is that sometime, we meet even though it wasn’t that meaningful but it is kind of way to show respect to others. It is okay to do sometime, but if we always do it we don’t have the time to live our live that we want to live. And we do a lot of that, we people these days.

Time for the Self and be bored if we must

I wake up at 5 am and go to bed around 11 pm. The days is very long here.

I did wake up around 6 am in Phnom Penh, but the day seem so short because I spent around 2-3 hours on the road, 2-3 hours on food, and 1 hour for waiting around before and after meeting. It is like 5+ hours of my life there is gone on that kind of things .

I get some work done, though. It is important to go to Phnom Penh, because most of my work is still there, but I see less need in the future to do so, with more advance of our communication.

Here I still can work. Many time, I can work better — less distraction. I can write much more, because I have more time for the Self that I don’t have in city.

Sometimes I feel so bored, but it is not because I am bored. It is more because I was so accustomed to the city life. We use the term "kill time" a lot in the city. Though, when we are in nature, we used the word bored more because we have less tools to kill our time.

One thing I’ve learned from this is that if we kill time more often, we have no time to live for ourselves. So if we feel bored sometime, don’t kill time — just be bored.